I do not apologize for misspellings or weirdly worded sentences, you will just have to deal with it. :-)
Belen has just left me to go spend the week with her grandparents in Wyoming and I am on the verge of falling apart and a panic attack. She has only been away from me overnight for the first time when my now 2 year old was born. She has never been more than an hour out of my grasp and I am not handling this well. I forget for a while and then I remember and my heart starts beating. I am trying to be mindful of the fear, mindful of my physical reactions to the fear and know the normality that my daughter really wants to be like other kids her age and spend some time with her grandparents.
I hope I can handle it. I hope she chews her food. I hope my mother-in-law (who is an extremely capable mother of 9) can keep her safe.
But if not,
I know that things will be okay.
I have been going through lots of grief work the last month. Anticipatory grief (like always), but also expectations needing another shift. I have allowed myself to make plans for her future that I had not allowed in years' past and I am not sure that is a bad thing. I just don't know if my heart is ready for her future.
Zeke has been having tons of fun on scout campouts. He had high adventure this week and rapeled down a 50 foot cliff. His leaders was so impressed that he was so visibly afraid and did it anyway. I could see definite comparisons to my own youth and I am happy with the way he was able to deal with his fear, when I couldn't at that age.
Abe went to Bryce Canyon last week and had lots of fun. And Lu and Stan spent a week with their cousins in Orem and had a blast. They went to bed too late and played video games and whined and laughed and loved it. I am glad they have the option to visit family and learn about other homes.
My sweet baby is 2. She loves to sing "Frozen" songs and wears her siblings shoes all over the house. This means that even if someone were to put away their shoes, there is no guarantee they will ever find them again. She is also wearing unders most of the time now. She loves it.
this is the first year in several that I have not had obligations on World Breastfeeding Week. It has been nice. Although, I don't anticipate it happening again in a very long time.
I am so glad to have the temple back, I can hardly stand it. The open house is going right now and will be dedicated at the end of September. We have our tickets for Belen's birthday and I am so antsy to be able to go back on a regular basis. I know I have taken it for granted having a temple so close for most of my life, but getting away with 6 children is *hard*. I know our ancestors are also itching to have us find them. There are new ones posted every few months on family search, it is so exciting. If you would like to see the inside of the Ogden Temple and would like a friend to go with you, let me know. I will be there!
More reunion pics. The girls loved being dragged around by the rope on any number of floaty things.